Three years. Three years ago I said goodbye to my sister.
Sometimes it feels like she was just here and other times it feels like it was
so long ago. I see my niece and my nephews and realize how fast life goes as
they learn new things every week, as they grow and change. And then life seems
to crawl when I look at my financial goals and the time it will take to get
there!
Our church has a ministry for local children that I started
helping with just this past year. It has been a challenge to me. Some of these kids
have extremely difficult lives and are so desperate for attention. To explain a
loving God and an absolute forgiving Savior is so difficult at times, but I
want them to see it, to get it, to have hope. Yet it seems so dark and
impossible.
A acquaintance posted a link yesterday that touched me more than
she will ever know. It was on Psalm 139. Psalm 139 became precious to me
several years back when I was attending Columbia International University.
There was a dear friend from the church I attended who mentored me. Her
favorite Psalm was this one and we read it often! Such precious words and
promises! Years later, I read it to Amy and the family the last Sunday we spent
together when we sang and worshipped in her bedroom with flowers and balloons and
sunshine all around. The video showed just a part of the Psalm, but was so
beautiful because of the precious people who quoted it! Here is the link to
watch it…
It made me miss her
so much more. Fearfully and wonderfully made, The body that made her so unique is no more. Words have come to
her lips and strength to her legs. Yet her eyes still sparkle and her infectious
giggle is probably bringing smiles to all! She was beautiful and she will
continue to be until we see her face to face!
I grabbed my Bible to read the entire passage again and this
time verses 11 and 12 jumped out to me. “If I say, ‘Surely the darkness will
hide me and the light become night around me,’ even the darkness will not be
dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to
you.” Darkness is as light to the LORD! It can be so easy to get depressed over
life. I freak out and think it is too dark, too impossible, it will take too
long, change will never happen. Yet the darkness is not dark to Him! Especially
a child’s soul! He sees the light and I need to trust Him! I need to trust that
He will save. I need to trust that He will provide. I need to trust His timing
and the tasks He wants me to accomplish.
If you think about it, please pray for these kids that need
to understand and be changed by the saving love of Jesus Christ; that their
lives and the lives of their families may be changed with the knowledge of the
death and resurrection of Jesus. Pray for us on Wednesday nights- that the darkness
will not hide the truth and that every word spoken from God will be clearly
understood. Thank you!
Absolutely precious Emily! Soo so dear! God has given you and your family HIS light for these dear ones through your own loved one and through the sorrow your have experienced. I will be praying that you will live in His Sanctuary to see His light and His goodness.... as you minister to the children God has brought to you and wait on HIM!!! Love you much!
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